I have a long history of...
Do you know what that is like?
I know that for me, the not so fun times were when I was stressed out, overwhelmed, worried, anxious....and EXHAUSTED (mainly because I was working so hard to try to control everything, while also keeping my insecurities hidden, even from myself!).
I was often frustrated, angry, and would find myself engaging in behaviors intended to self-soothe, but that just ended up making me feel worse. When I would get pulled into these patterns, it would become a real challenge to get back to a space where I could see any other sort of possibility.
In these times I would ignore the whispers that would attempt to remind me of my real truth, deep down. I was not trusting my awareness, or asking myself what I would like; what I required. I was not honoring my commitments to myself, asking my body what it would like; what it required. I was not really including myself in the creation of my own life, and slowly I began to recognize that it felt like death. Sound dramatic? Maybe, yet it's 100% how I felt.
With practice and conscious choice, I began to strip away the layers, become more aware of what I was functioning from (what I was basing my choices on), and getting to know my deeper self, what I would actually choose for me (without all the shoulds, expectations, and perceived obligations). I began to trust myself more, creating more ease and joy in my work and life at large.
Each day, this continues to be a practice for me, and each day, I continue to ask questions of my body, my knowing, the Universe, and I keep checking in with this more expanded sense of self, consciousness, and being that speaks with a soft voice and guides the way with a soft focus.
While this may sound a little too esoteric for some, I find it practical to engage with myself, and everything else around me, from this broader, holistic perspective. After all, as they say, Consciousness includes everything and judges nothing.
Bah-hooie, you say?
It turns out that we limit ourselves way more than we realize, through the expectations, projections, judgements, and conclusions we make...AND OUR FEAR OF CHOOSING...on a daily basis.
What if I told you most of what we function from is based on beliefs, emotions, fears, hopes, and dreams that never even belonged to us in the first place, but were passed on through the memetic transfer of other peoples' beliefs, emotions, fears, hopes, and dreams?
Now that you know this, would it be more fun to actually choose to create what YOU desire and let go of the rest? You can keep (and play with!) what is working for you, AND have permission (and support) to change out the stuff that isn't.
In a Universe claimed to be infinite, is it possible that we can create more than we ever thought possible? I believe yes.
Einstein shared, "There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Would you be willing to step into your body, life, and living, by reclaiming it, having your own back, and learning to become both a leader in your life and a co-creator with others?
Would you be willing to take inspired action, practice cultivating and nurturing your own personal growth and freedom, and celebrate the miracles in each day?
Let's seek and find together, because there is always another step to take, another mountain to climb, and another view to admire along the way.